It's just the truth I get way too in my head when I hit that stuff and it messes with my communication skills, which are already a mess. I do it as a vice to fill a major void in doing nothing, boredom is as scary as the Grim Reaper is for people who vape. Thinking is nice but kills me, experience breaths life into me. Today was a 5/10 level of happiness due to it, I still am adjusting to life without a role that was just being incorporated into my process. Tough to handle and to bounce back up from. Really it's not even my main stressor, getting some ass is, transparently I haven't had a new girl to hang out with in a while. What's making this stressful is I'm talking to only one, meaning all the attention is on her and during a time where I'm not my most emotionally up.
It's prolonging us meeting since she needs to really feel it to meet, one of those, I think it's killing the attraction for both of us. These are just dumb theories but I may need to bring myself to my intention for wanting to meet is it for validation? Or having a girl interested in me but because I want to be intimate with her. She's pretty and my type and I just am not in the position to close. This has been a thing for me in the past. Way too comfortable being validation focused and not experience. In my head I think hehe she likes me, my jobs done. I feel the effects of that now as I don't know when and how to escalate relations, me, to most that would sound like the biggest lie since Trumps old Football League. What I'll need to do is act regardless of how cringey or weird it CAN come off as. Since no-way man is better than no-mans-land. LEt's take it from there.
Greg
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